So things are going well, I am losing weight and I my blood pressure is going down thanks to the meds. I am currently watching Mad Money with Maura Steiner while writing this. Anyways I am finding it hard to stay on track with my weight though sometimes I go down and do great other times I splurge and have to work a little harder. I guess it is interesting how life works and how health is important. Here in America the average weight for male at average height is 191lbs and women its 165 lbs. That is really telling us how unhealthy we are getting. One of the things I find myself pondering is if I can get myself in shape and my body looking good again if I will have a easier time finding a relationship. I have a feeling that might not make a difference though, or maybe in a way I just dont want to admit that it makes a difference. I know many beautiful women that I  would love to date but I always keep my mouth shut because I feel like I dont stand a shot. I understand the thought process that you cant win at a game if you never step in and play. I just dont know if it is worth playing the game is the odds arent in your favor, but then you are the one who decides if the odds are in your favor or not….or something like that. I guess I just have to stay with it and maybe it will ring true that after girls have their times with the hot guys that arent really trying to make it in life they will want someone who really wants to make it in life and have a real family feel. Or maybe I am missing the point all together, oh well who knows. More thoughts later on.