So today was another day of shopping. I have spent money but I feel okay because I know I am committed to paying it down so I know when I get back I will take care of paying it down and Christmas only comes once a year. While I have totally enjoyed the weather and part of me wants to be here I am also wanting to be home. I miss the dogs. This reason is also applying some difficult thoughts about me moving out. I love those dogs a lot and being away from them is a scary thought. This new job has really brought forward my love of animals. When I am out walking on this trip and I see someone walking their dog I have to stop and pet it. Getting back to work will be interesting because its always a little slow getting back to work after vacation. I found a perfect shirt for my boss. I also spent time today talking with Jessica. Its funny because now I don’t know what I did before I met her because if I don’t talk to her during the day it doesn’t feel right. She makes me laugh and is the first girl who has ever said to me “will you work on your weight for me, not because I want you to weigh less because of attractiveness but because I want to know you are healthy and will always be around.” You know there is just something totally different about this time around, never have I felt and connection like this and felt so at ease with someone. She is honest and kind and today just kid around with me about life and made me realize just how lucky I am to have met someone so amazing. Whether or not you choose to believe in God I do and I thank him for bringing her into my life. I know that this truly is something special and I like that a lot. I also now how lucky I am and do not plan to let things go wrong. I hope you are all ready for Christmas I have got everything I need this year. I got a good job and I have nice coworkers and boss that appreciate me, I have great friends and family that care about me and want the best for me, I have two puppies that are totally cute and love unconditionally, and I met a amazing girl who makes me smile and wants to do whatever it takes to make things work with us over time. Thank you very much Lord for these great gifts this year and blessing me. I know it was time for you to take my grandmother and though I miss her dearly I know she is happy being with you. I will see you again someday Grandmommy. Thank you and everyone have a great Christmas.